September 29, 2022
As I was staring at the ceiling, I kept closing my eyes, shaking my head, and praying over and over. I kept having this thought in my head, "my brother will fall from his crib and break his arm, my brother will fall from his crib and break his arm." I hoped that if I kept praying and shaking my head, this terrible thought would go away. I started to cry when I realized that what I was doing to stop these thoughts was useless. [...]